Dear Dale — I always feel guilty for not writing to you. But then I remember that I talk to you most every day. You are always in my thoughts – but most importantly – you’re in my heart.
Recently, you’ve been in my thoughts more than ever.
In my last letter to you I told you that I was selling the house. Well, it’s been sold for about two months now, and I’ve moved into Miriam’s house instead of Casa Grande. They ended up be way too expensive for me and they wanted my income to be 2.5 times the rent. Hmmmm, if I had that kind of money – I could have kept the house. Anyway, I moved in with Miriam and she’s not charging me a lot of rent.
Sigh — living in her house hasn’t been what I thought it would be. It’s less than ideal – but you know that already, don’t you?? The situation was only supposed to be temporary anyway…and thank goodness I found a new place to live.
Originally, I was looking for a place in Corona. I love Corona, and it also holds many memories of you. Sadly, apartments are expensive and the low-income apartments are hard to get into. People don’t move out often because the rents are so low. Regularly, I’ve been calling the renting agents at the places I’d like to live, but without any luck.
About three weeks ago, however, I got a call from Marsha – the renting agent at Sun Villa Resort Apartments in Mesa, AZ. AZ had been on the table a number of times, but I always set it aside because I truly love CA. In the recent past, things have come up that made me realize that I need to be near Krista. I miss her so much, as well as Samantha. But when my back started to go out one night, I got scared. We both know that when my back goes out, I could be down for weeks, if not months. Who would take care of me?? Even when I had a cough and cold this past week, there really wasn’t anyone I could ask to get me meds and stuff. So I had to drag myself out of bed and to the store. And I have to be honest — I wasn’t in the best shape to drive. This experience was an eye-opener. I’m not getting younger – and eventually I’m going to need help. Sigh. I don’t feel I can count on Amy for help.
Shortly after moving into Miriam’s, I ran into a crisis (at least for me it was a crisis), and I called Amy for help. I asked if I could move in with her. Long story short – she said no. It was heartbreaking for me to know that I could’t count on her for support. Needless to say – we’re not really on the best of terms anymore.
Karen would have taken me in temporarily had I asked – but heck, I’m not moving to ice and snow. I love Karen dearly, but I know I’d be better off in sweltering hot AZ.
With all that said, I’m moving to Mesa, AZ on November 9th. My apartment will be ready for me on the 10th. Dale — I am so excited about this move!!
Moving in with Miriam was a good thing though. It made the transition from the house on Lorraine to being on my own not so much easier, but it will make the transition from CA to AZ easier. When I left the house, I felt as if I had left you behind. There was so much in the house that had your footprint. You, as far as I was concerned, still lived there. Leaving you behind broke my heart.
Now as I prepare to move to AZ, I don’t have all those same feelings again – well, not until I realize that you’ll be at Riverside National and I’ll be 347 miles away from you. I plan on visiting you before I leave – but then I think it might be too difficult. Sometimes I wish I had had you cremated – this way I could take you with me. But I know you didn’t want to be cremated.
There are so many unknowns related to my move. I’ve seen the apartments on their website, but not in person. I sent Krista over to meet with Marsha and see the apartment complex. She said I’d be happy there – and I have to trust her to know what I like AND that it’s a nice, clean place. She only saw the model, but she said everything looked good on the grounds as well. The apartment complex is a 55 and over, and it’s inside of a 55 and over residential complex, which is situated on a golf course. I suppose I can’t go wrong. Everyone tells me they’re sure it’s nice because it’s on a golf course. But who knows. I have to keep remembering that Krista wouldn’t let me move into a place that was a dump.
Funny enough, I already know a couple of people who live in Mesa and one in Gilbert. It’s nice to know that I already have friends. Plus Jeremy’s step mom is there. I only met her twice (briefly), but we’ve been talking on FB, and we’re both looking forward to getting to know each other better.
I’m in Starbucks right now. Been here for a few hours already. Miriam has her brother and sister-in-law visiting from Texas, and this afternoon her kids and grandkids are coming over for dinner. I was invited, but I’m going to escape. I’m not interested in spending time with them.
Oh, did I tell you that I bought a car?? Ed Garland, my realtor (from the Elks Lodge – remember when I used to sit for his open houses?). Anyway, he had a 2004 Honda Accord for sale. I bought it for $5,000. It only had 67.000 miles on it. I think I got a great deal! It’s fun to drive too. The Dodge Ram was getting old – but it still has a lot of spunk in her. Jeremy is driving it now.
And I finally bought a MacBook Air. My HP was heading south real fast. I needed a new laptop. Since I don’t forsee me buying another one after this – I decided to just go for the best. It’s only got a small 13″ screen, but it’s still big enough for me to design websites. I’m loving my Mac — and take it with me almost everywhere.
Okay — I’m sure there’s more I should be telling you, but heck, you know it all already. I know you’re watching out for me from heaven — although, what’s with not visiting me anymore???? I figured you weren’t going to come to me at Miriam’s house — but I sure hope you find me in AZ.
Sweet Dreams My Love,